[ Yes, he knows. He's telling him so he gets that Hijikata doesn't have his back in that burden right now. ]
...Karelin had to get his current nightmare from somewhere, right? And where ever I am in burning up my time through the ochimizu, it's far enough along that I'll only be a problem for you without being a rasetsu. [ If this was any other situation—he'd say fuck it and do it regardless, but this isn't something he can screw around with. This isn't standing toe to toe with Kazama Chikage to slap that smug look off his face. It's not just about him and he is aware he can still assist in a different way.
He's not offended, but the spite he's feeling towards this place right now is terribly obvious. He hates this, he hates the idea that he has to sit back and he can't support Saitou with a blade. He hates that what he's feeling is currently eating away at a kid that doesn't even know how to have a fucking lick of self-esteem and still is aimless in the world and no matter how he looks at it, it's his own fault that's happening. ]
I'll find out what needs to be done to resolve this—you pierce straight on through and make sure it happens. You're the only surefire blade able to cut this time. [ At this point, Hijikata has no idea if Heisuke is all right, either. ]
[ he's not going to tell saitou it's not his fault, because that only sounds like criticism to his ability to take responsibility for what he feels is his.
however, hijikata will point out that there is no reason for saitou to feel he deserves less. hijikata lost chizuru on the ishimura. and now he's failing to be able to assist saitou by being affected by COMPASS' bullshit. ]
You trust me, and keep going.
[ and he'll trust you the same.
yeah what's being straight and not vague to make sure he's understood? hijikata doesn't know. ]
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...Karelin had to get his current nightmare from somewhere, right? And where ever I am in burning up my time through the ochimizu, it's far enough along that I'll only be a problem for you without being a rasetsu. [ If this was any other situation—he'd say fuck it and do it regardless, but this isn't something he can screw around with. This isn't standing toe to toe with Kazama Chikage to slap that smug look off his face. It's not just about him and he is aware he can still assist in a different way.
He's not offended, but the spite he's feeling towards this place right now is terribly obvious. He hates this, he hates the idea that he has to sit back and he can't support Saitou with a blade. He hates that what he's feeling is currently eating away at a kid that doesn't even know how to have a fucking lick of self-esteem and still is aimless in the world and no matter how he looks at it, it's his own fault that's happening. ]
I'll find out what needs to be done to resolve this—you pierce straight on through and make sure it happens. You're the only surefire blade able to cut this time. [ At this point, Hijikata has no idea if Heisuke is all right, either. ]
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I will not let you down.
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Yes, sir.
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Saitou.
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[ he's not going to tell saitou it's not his fault, because that only sounds like criticism to his ability to take responsibility for what he feels is his.
however, hijikata will point out that there is no reason for saitou to feel he deserves less. hijikata lost chizuru on the ishimura. and now he's failing to be able to assist saitou by being affected by COMPASS' bullshit. ]
You trust me, and keep going.
[ and he'll trust you the same.
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But he doesn't argue. He straightens up, again, and it's as though the motion somehow bleeds into his tone, even just for two short syllables.]
Yes, sir.